Thank You God
Thank you God for all the times you did not answer my prayers. Like that one time, in high school I prayed you would make my parents let me go to that party, and they said no. I was angry with you. But the next day I found out there had been lots of drinking and the cops were called. Or when I lost my first love at BYU-I and I prayed so hard we'd be reunited and we never were. My heart broke into a million pieces, and I was angry with you. But later that month I met the man who is now my best friend, lover, husband and father of my beautiful children. Thank you for sending my angel daughter who is blind. I prayed to you to give her sight, but you did not and I was angry at you. But through her blindness I have truly learned to see. Thank you.
Thank you God for letting me make wrong choices. Remember that summer I went to my brother's house to work for the day? I learned that I couldn't hold my alcohol very well and remembered why I resented Lena Dodds so much. Thank you for letting me listen to my parents and abandon my best friend Shelby. Because of that I gained some great new friends and grew even closer to the one I lost. Or letting me date Ryan Updaul and go a little wild. After dating him, I knew exactly what I wanted in a future love and still, to this day, I appreciate the heart break. Thanks for standing by when I made every stupid, ill thought out decision in my life. Because of those mistakes I have the knowledge to do right by myself and family now. Thank you.
Thank you God for giving me, your infant daughter, to a broken and horrid home. I am grateful for all the nights spent sleeping on the cold floor of a tent, or in the back seat of a car. Thank you for the many nights slept in a one person hotel room with my 7 brothers and sisters, Lena and her abusive boy friend. Because of those nights, my family will always have a home, warm beds and a father to protect them. Thank you for the times John Sr beat me mentally and psychically. I made sure that my children would have the most loving and gracious father in the world... and they do. Thanks for the drugged up mother who allowed her men friends to take away my precious, sweet little girl innocence. Now I can spot an evil man just by looking into his eyes, and will be able to protect my babies. Thank you for the nightmare that was my past, because now my present is a dream come true and my future is a bright and shining star.
Truly, from the bottom of my heart,
Thank you God, thank you
