Saturday, April 2, 2011

I Want to Hold your Hand!

I chose this title for my over all blog because it pretty much describes me and Mr Lee!  
I remember when I was about to get married my sister Cait 
informed me that after you get married the making out, hand holding and constant butterflies come to a halt... only because you could do SOMETHING else and it kind of took over. 

WELL! I told this to Jonny and he promised me that, that would never! ever! 
be the case with us! 
2 1/2 years later this still rings true!
I still have butterflies in my tummy when he reaches for my hand!
(Which he does anytime we are going anywhere!)
I am pretty sure we are the only couple who kisses each other
as we are leaving SOMEONE else's home.

Loving one another NEVER gets old. And everyday
we find new ways to show that love! 
If it weren't for our two little lovelies people would 
assume we are newly weds! 
*sigh* 
I love being so in LOVE !

I love this crazy, tragic, Sometimes almost magic, Awful, beautful life!


Well folks it is Saturday and I am up before the rooster crows! I am still undecided as to whether or not I am enjoying being up or if I want to be sound asleep snuggling with Mr Lee... hmmm I chose snuggling!

BUT! I am up with Abigail.  She took a midnight nap around 3:00am and up @ 5:00am!


So GOOD MORNING!!!

I have a few things to share with you from my week.  I thought I would do a short recap of my week's highs and lows. :)

Monday

  • Low- My kids slept all day and I missed playing with them. :{
  • High - Mr Lee quietly led me into my bedroom and with relaxing Zen music gave me a back & foot massage!
  • High - After my debut at the Jon Spa he tucked me into bed for a nap that lasted a good portion of the day!
  • High - When I woke up he had cleaned the WHOLE house and it was OH so Pretty!
Tuesday
  • High - We took a play day and relaxed all day enjoying our B E A UTIFUL babies!
Wednesday:
  • High - We went to Mom Cindy's to a pizza party and to visit Gama Harris from Georgia! 
  • ? - Abby learned how to bark... and freakishly quite well!
  • Low - I almost got in a wreck because some jerk face lady tried to cut me off two seconds away from the stop light. I passed her... made eye contact and ... stuck my tongue out at her!
Thursday:
  • Low - Got very little sleep
  • High - We were given a COSTCO membership! I had to bite my tounge when I flashed my card to the door lady... I wanted to say "FBI Mam, I'm here investigate the contents of the store and purchase evidence that proves COSTCO ROCKS!" 
Friday
  • High - The day went by slowly and breezy!
  • High - Watched Tangled and watched some in the setting for the blind! It was AWESOME!
  • High - Abby really liked Tangled! 
  • High - Bought tons of healthy, great tasting food for me and Mr Lee!

Friday, April 1, 2011

I'm sooooooo LOVIN' April 1st!

So last night I was up all night long with Abigail. 
I tried to sleep here and there but it was a DISASTER!!! Only because I just wanted to play with her and cuddle her. :) I got to sleep from 6:30 am until 8:30 am. Even though I only had two hours I feel so INVIGORATED! 

She is absolutely my FAVE daughter! I am trying to teach her how to say:
MAMA

Abby is determined never to say my name. She will growl, hum, squeal, bark even rather than say mama. It doesn't really bother me because one day she'll have payback! I will teach my granddaughter to say Nana before she EVER says MAMA! That is my secret plan which is now not so secret anymore. :)

April 1st marks the first day of my official "Adventures of a Fit, Fun, FANTASTIC mama!" series and  Mr Lee, being the heartsweet (story about heartsweet to be posted on his blog shortly!) he is brought home breakfast from his early morning runs. Breakfast? Doughnuts... bite size powered and frosted DOUGHNUTS! I broke his heart when I told him today was THE day of my new self.  Poor fellow bout' lost it. ;). I am so STINKIN excited about this I am pretty sure I shed a few pounds just from jumping up and down in my mind! 

I do not believe in tracking my weight.  Yes I have a HEALTHY weight goal I would eventually like to obtain. But like they say:
 "All good things come to those who wait!".  
I am going to be focusing more on food choices, exercise and fitting into my favorite outfits! Like my T that says I <3 my Hubby, or my pok-a-dot swimsuit, or my favorite bedroom piece... yes I just said that! A great wife and mother is made from confidence, great self esteem and of course her sense of humor! 

Anywhodado, feel free to read, laugh or cry whatever you're in the mood for when reading my posts! I will be blogging every day! Also, don't worry about all the ! in my blog posts! I know my grammar but I am naturally a loud and outrageous person! So think of it as getting a lil' piece of Mrs. Fit Lee in your life! Every time you use and ! think of me and my OH SO B E A utiful self! 

Well, ththththt thththth thats' all folks! (K) MUAH! (a big fat blogger kiss!)


Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Oh Abby! Oh Bronco!

So I have been needing to update everyone on Abigail and how she's doing.  She's 16months old and quite the little toddler.  She has been struggling with her sleeping and about a month ago got really sick.  She wouldn't eat or drink and sleep was something no one was getting (except for Bronco).  We went two weeks barely getting a smile out of of our Bugaboo.  We took several trips into the ER to find out she ONLY had a cold.  Well a cold for Abby means she won't eat, sleep and loses weight.

She quickly went from 20lbs to 16 lbs. Once she got on the mend it was still hard for her to eat.  However we got her weight back up to 18lbs (Bronco weighs 18 1/2lbs!) Abby got off schedule again and in just the few days she's been up all night has lost another pound and is back down to 17lb. After her last episode it is hard to get her to eat all meals.  She'll have one bowl of cereal or a few crackers and refuse to eat after that. And we have to feed her formula. This is why it's so important we get her and keep her on a schedule because it affects her more than seeing babies.

She is quite the talker and "DaDa", "Sissy" and Gibberish is pretty much all she says.  She'll be a teenager before she says mom. :) On the lighter end I am the only person she gives hugs and kisses to.  She'll stick her hand out and push away anyone else who tries! I love that she does that on purpose. She knows where her loyalties lie!

She recently discovered she can get on her hands and knees and is trying to figure out how to crawl.  She is a professional butt scooter and roller but I think she is ready for new adventures. She has some muscle atrophy in her legs and we try  to get her standing a few minutes a day. She looks so cute! She  tries to move her upper body without having to move her feet and looks like a lil' Leaning Tower of Abby.

She loves to sing and hum.  Her favorite things to do include; listening to Glee and dancing to the music, playing the piano and singing (she writes her own music), playing with her Leap Frog Bongo Drum! It is amazing to watch her play along with the music and hit on beat!

Bronco is getting HUGE! He is gaining about a pound a week and at five months old weighs 18 1/2 lbs! Bronco loves his big sister (even though he looks like he could swallow her whole!). He watches her every move and tries to copy her.  Abby is super flexible and can bend her legs and body every which way she wants.  Bronco is amazed when he see her grab her feet and pull her legs behind her head and tap them on the floor.  He observes her momentarily then tries it himself.  His big belly and the mounds of rolls on his legs prevents him from getting anywhere. Yet he continues to try until he gets a toe and then he drops it and moves on satisfied he got that far.

 When he wakes up from his nap Abby gets the biggest smile of all. He really admires her and is very close.  If Abby is crying or not feeling well Bronco looks at her so concerned and then he looks at us as if to ask us to help her. It is quite endearing. He is trying to crawl too.  He doesn't get too far because his tummy is too big. When he attempts to crawl his chubby little arms and legs are waving and kicking and pushing but his fat stomach acts as an anchor and he can only scoot a few feet.  Bronco is quite the professonal stander upper!
He loves to stand up and hold onto the couch or whatever he can get a good grip on.  This boy is going to be running around the house in no time at all!

I have been blessed with two ADORABLE babies and a caring husband who looks after those babes.  Even now, as I am stretched out on the couch, Abby is cuddle up to me with her head on my stomach humming along with the music (Beyonce - I am Sasha Fierce... song Ave Maria) and rubbing my arms. If only she were just waking up right now and not going to bed in two hours. haha :)

Well, I am going to lay her in her room and see what happens! Maybe I can catch a few more zzzz's! 

Monday, March 21, 2011

Just a note

I just wanted to let ya'll know that I am NOT unhappy with my life.  I love my children dearly, I could not have asked for a better husband and I know that being with them is worth all the hardship.  I am merely frustrated with the fact that we have been stuck in the same situation for almost three years now.

I applied for a job today. It pays $15.00/h with benefits. Their main criteria was a fun, outgoing person to assist customers and answer the phone lines when the  original medical receptionists are swamped.  It's 32 hours a week and is a perfect environment for me to work in. Jon's job starts in April, but it pays just enough to pay rent and bills.  The hours are frustrating and he has to work Sundays no questions asked. So this job I applied for today is definitely, without question, a better option for our growing family.

I am sorry I unloaded on everyone today.  I don't like to appear so vulnerable but even the most capable people have their moments.  Thanks for listening! 

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Why?

 I have had a lot of unhappiness in my life and I have not complained.  I persevered through years of horrific abuse and living circumstances. I triumphed over a broken heart and defeated the odds.  I got married and we are doing what a lot of people didn't believe we could. And on top of all that ( and every thing else I have omitted) my daughter was born blind.  And I have my off days and my good days.

My off days consist of a lot of crying, dazed stares and frustration.  I get angry at God for all my misfortunes and most of all hate Him for not saving Abby's sight.  My good days consist of me telling myself over and over that God has a plan for my family and it will soon unfold.  I smile and am patient that God will one day restore Abby's sight.  But my good days are becoming few and fewer.  When will the never ending circle of hurt, frustration and us never getting anywhere end?

I see all my brothers and sisters flourishing, in their careers, in their homes and living without the fear. Fear of never knowing if one month you'll have enough money to make rent or getting another phone call that says you're going to be evicted if your rent isn't in. I am not bitter for them I am happy for them.  I rejoice for them.  I am just past the point of waiting on God to help.

I fear I am losing my faith. And no matter how hard we try to do what it is He commands us too, it seems we are only holding up our end of the deal. Dear Lord, please swoop down from Your mighty Heavens and save this tired daughter of yours before I throw in the towel and try flying solo.

(sorry this was so depressing! I just figure I am entitled to a little complaining once in a great while). 

Saturday, March 19, 2011

I'm Like Butter! I'm on a Roll! ( a not so good roll)

I am one of those people who probably should have sticky notes plastered ALL over my house, my face and whatever else I might need. Here are several reasons why but will only share three tonight. I call this one NOTE TO SELF :)

Note To Self:

1) Eyeliner is NOT Lip Liner!
      - One Sunday morning, after a long night of up and downs with Abby, I barely made it out of bed to get ready for church.  Hubby and the kids were sound asleep and I needed to be dressed and reved to go before I got them up and ready (yes I had to dress and feed all THREE babies). :-)  My hair was done, I was dressed and putting on my makeup.  I was all done and I couldn't understand why I looked soooo weird! Well I had bright red lip liner on my eyes and pitch black eyeliner on my lips! Needless to say I washed it off before Jon woke up so he couldn't tease me. And now that he knows about it (two months later) I am sure I will never live this one down!

2) Desitin is NOT Tooth paste!
      - I had left a tube of Desitin in the bathroom from Abby's bath the night before. Then next morning when I brushed my teeth I couldn't figure out why my toothpaste was incredibly bland... It's a good thing I had just started and was able to correct my mistake as I noticed the butt cream next to my paste.

3)  DO NOT turn on the washing machine prior to taking a shower!
     - I started a large load of laundry and a few minutes later hopped in the shower. It should never feel like Christmas in your shower... never. Oh and to make matters worse I told Jon he needed to take a shower and suffer what I had suffered. But by then the water had turned back to a Florida warm springs. Ug




We love our sweet little spirits! It feels like heaven everyday with them in our home!

Just gas? I don't think so... just happiness! <3

Blue Eyes... you have us wrapped around your finger!

My little man doing what he does best...being a stud

Our darling Abby... always has a smile on her face!